Ok, so I really suck at blogging lately. I have thoughts I want to write about but then get sidetracked by one of the other billion or so things that are going on either in my head or in real life. Having a toddler will do that to you.
But the reason I am blogging right now is because Heidi inspired me to just write. I forget that it doesn’t have to be a full blown article with pictures and points. It doesn’t even have to be inspirational. Ha.
So, I’m just going to ramble for a while.
Today I decided to simplify my approach to food and eating. I will ask myself one simple question and it requires a simple “yes” or “no” answer. Am I hungry? If no, do not eat. If yes, eat.
It seems simple, doesn’t it. Almost too simple? Yeah. But how many times do I ask the question of myself but allow answers other than “yes” to mean yes?
Am I hungry? Well, sort of, I mean, I’m not full, so that sort of counts, right? (Real answer: No.)
Am I hungry? It’s dinner time and my family is assembled and the food is ready, so I’m ready to eat. (Real answer: No.)
Am I hungry? I am finally getting some me time – I want to do something that will make me feel good, relaxed, pampered, unstressed. (Real answer: No.)
So, I leave myself (and anyone else who happens to be reading) with the following:
Simply let your ‘Yes’ be ‘Yes,’ and your ‘No,’ ‘No’; anything beyond this comes from the evil one.
Monday, May 14, 2007 – 10:19 am
Monday Morning – 5/14
I waited this morning to eat until I felt a hunger signal. Breakfast was small and simple, but I believe it was in line with TW.
Lunch is just going to be another ham & swiss on wheat, with lettuce and mayo – and I’m going to split it with J5. We’ll have a few chips and I’ll have a diet soda. Simple and easy.
I already went out and watered the patches that J4 seeded this weekend. Did that while J5 was eating breakfast. My arms ache from lugging that hose up and down the yard, but it’s good for me. 🙂
Dinner may well be a pizza if I can’t get our car to start. J4 said it wouldn’t start this morning and took the other car. Thank God we have two! But if it won’t start, I’m going to have to order groceries on line rather than hit the store today. Maybe I can scrounge up a decent looking dinner with what we have in the house…we’ll see…
Monday, May 14, 2007 – 11:36 pm
I made it through one night!!
I work part time from home. I have recently changed my working hours so I only work when my son is asleep – nap time and after bed. (Trying to work while entertaining a toddler is just plain insane…)
Anyway, since I switched to this new schedule, I have binged every single night while I worked. After we put J5 to bed, I would start working and then take random trips to the kitchen every time I would get frustrated or overwhelmed or stressed by the work (which was pretty much constantly…).
Tonight was the first night I worked and did not eat a thing!!! I have been very itchy, twitchy and panicky, but I DID NOT EAT!! God is so good!!
‘I can do all things through Him who gives me strength.’