Just For Me

The Path Ahead
Over the past few months, I have been struggling. Not that struggling is new to me. I wrangle life inside my head long before I live it outside.

I’ve also been reading: books, blogs, tweets, and of course, FB. I’m hearing a bit of a theme. The changes I need to make in my life to become what I want can only be made by me, and can only be determined by me. It’s time for me to stop abdicating responsibility for my life. Whether it be blaming the church, various employers, people in general, or God…for not getting me to where I want to go, I need to be done with excuses and start making the climb.

I’m going to stumble a whole freakin’ lot on this journey, but I’m going to take it and journal it.

The Sea Change topic for this month is Decluttering. It’s one that’s near to my heart and well timed. We’ll see how it goes for my home, my body, and my mind.

My first small thing will be getting moving. Not a huge fitness plan, just moving more than I am now. That won’t be hard.

Currently Reading: Zealot by Reza Aslan and Mind Over Medicine by Lissa Rankin

I am an introvert, and other things…

Some things about me:

  • I hate fake chit chat, it exhausts me
  • I enjoy being alone
  • I listen a lot
  • I DO talk, and sometimes can prattle when it’s a topic I’m excited about
  • I love to write (mostly in my journal, but working on blogging more, to exercise my writing voice)
  • Just because I don’t jump into a conversation in a group doesn’t mean I’m not actively listening and processing
  • If you’re being fake, I can usually tell, and won’t invest myself
  • I love a quiet house
  • I’m currently digging deeper into minimalism (like Becker and Babauta) and meditation (like Freeman and Babauta)
  • I am very happily married to my best friend


Experiment Day 2: Planning

[The continuing story of me and minimalism. I’m working through a not-quite-real-time version of a “21 Day Journey into Minimalism” as illustrated by TheMinimalists.com]

With your vision firmly in place, it is time for you to plan your journey into minimalism. You will spend one to two hours today planning your journey into minimalism.

— Day 2: Planning

So…Day 2. Most of today was spent working from home and taking care of a sick kid. Seems I’ve been doing a lot of that lately. I read through bits of the Day 2 post several times throughout the day and got progressively frustrated. I was expecting each day to have a full set of instructions, and no matter how many times I read over it, I was just not “getting” it. What was I planning? A schedule where I did things to support my “musts”? It didn’t seem to make sense. Then I decided to step out of my OCD shoes for a moment and go ahead and “read ahead” through the next few days. BINGO!

Now I can see that I’m going to need to plan some time to do the Day 3 stuff. Mine won’t happen all tomorrow. It might happen a little bit, but as I am not the sole occupant of this home, I can’t just start something so drastic without some level of buy-in from J4!

My main plan is this: since I can’t just pack up the whole house, I am going to start in 2 places – the bookshelf in the living room and my side of the closet (and if I’m doing well, my dresser space). I will box up all the books in the living room, leaving out only the items that I know I will not be rid of in this wave (photo albums, new books I haven’t read yet, but must — the ones I bought and never will can go — I’m ready to be rid of that guilt-on-a-shelf). The clothes are already bagged up into smaller sizes for when I lose the weight I’ve been trying to lose for over 10 years now. We’ll see if they ever return…

On Friday, the 7th, I believe I will start in the kitchen.
Next Tuesday, the 11th, I will finish up in the kitchen.
The following Friday, the 14th, I will work on the basement pantry shelves.

This is my first guess at a timeline. I will take pictures. I may even post pictures. Here’s my bookshelf for inspiration to keep me motivated tomorrow. (BTW, this will probably be difficult for me tomorrow. I love books. I love to own them. I love to see them. I like to hoard them. It is painful for me to be rid of them, but they also hold a great deal of weight and guilt in my heart for not reading them. Time to shed some of that kind of weight too.)

The Living Room Bookshelf – Before

Oh, and on a side note, I dragged myself and my recovering kid out on a walk today, thus supporting the “must” of exercise. Go me!

Lundie – Before 😉
Photo by J5

Good night.


Experiment Day 1: My “Musts”

[Please Note: The following 21 days of posts may be short, and will not make a whole lot of sense without reading a blog post over at The Minimalists.com, entitled Our 21 Day Journey Into Minimalism.

What are your musts? What must happen in your life for a fundamental change to occur?


  • I must exercise.
  • I must reduce the quantity and increase the quality of my food.
  • I must reduce the number of things already in our home.
  • I must reduce wasteful spending on things we don’t need.
  • I must complete my self-care regimen every night.*
  • I must cut the TV I watch in half.*
  • I must read on a regular basis.*
  • I must write on a regular basis.*

*11/3/12 – ETA: More musts