This has been a doozy of a year so far.
It’s hard to remain present all of the time. Everything in our society is geared toward escaping the current moment. Don’t feel good? Just take something, drink something, watch something, buy something, go somewhere!
Waiting is hard. Even more so when you have no power to change the outcome.
Distracting myself with current world events only exacerbates the overwhelming desire to escape the current moment.
Practice makes perfect though. When the weight threatens, a deep breath and a “note to self” that “Hey. I feel kinda shitty.” helps. It puts a little gap between me and my feelings and my current situation. Puts me into observer mode rather than sufferer mode. From there I get a little break from the weight of things. (I’m sure learning a lot from Eckhart Tolle’s talk on the “Pain Body”. It makes me happy when my audiobook selection clicks in serendipitous ways.)
My goal still stands. Right here. Right now. Whatever’s in front of me.
Love and light,