October 2015

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Day 30 - Speaking Up:  I Can't Want To

Wow. I haven’t touched this blog in over a week. I hit a wall, and no matter how much I told myself I SHOULD write something, in the words of my 4(?) year old self…”I can’t want to!” So, no posts. There’s one more day to this writing challenge, but I can tell you now,

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Day 22 - Speaking Up: Shut Up

The “never enough” monster has lived in my brain too long. The nit-picking, the quick skimming over successes, the extensive dwelling on the shortfalls. I can be a real bitch. Today I’m speaking up and saying “SHUT UP!!!” to that inner voice who can’t seem to get enough. For a lot of years I’ve used

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Day 19 - Speaking Up:  Things I Love

Ok, so not all of these are technically “things”, this is me “speaking up” about what makes me smile, gives me hope, fills me with joy: Facebook posts that inspire me to close Facebook and go find something enjoyable to do The drop of the temperature in fall, accompanied by sharp blue skies and fiery

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Day 18 - Speaking Up: Owning It

I did something today that I never thought I would do. I freely told a distant (extended) family member about being in therapy. Yup. At a family event, I was simultaneously pulled into a conversation, and outed as someone who is a “worrier”. It could have been really embarrassing, awkward and uncomfortable, but surprisingly even

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Day 16 - Speaking Up: Friday Night

I have nothing to talk about this evening, that much I can tell you. It’s Friday night. I just finished re-counting the squares I’ve crocheted so far for Jack’s Creeper Blanket (see February 25’s post “Getting Craft-y“). Due to the size of the individual squares, I had to reduce the number of squares from 768

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Day 15 - Speaking Up:  Sandra Bland

I learned today that the Sandra Bland tragedy struck closer to home than I realized. I was reading a blog post, by this pastor, about how Senator Bernie Sanders took the time to sit down and talk with Sandra’s mother recently. (I have to say, I have a great deal of hope for our country

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Day 14 - Speaking Up: Depression and Anxiety

Neither depression, nor anxiety are fun topics. I struggle with both. It’s not something I hide, nor is it something I talk about publicly very often. I have been in regular therapy for a few years now. I have had moments when I feared that maybe someone would try to use that knowledge against me

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After the migraines this past week, I realized that although my writing topic is Speaking Up, I am needing to do some “listening up” as well. My body is sending full out alarms about the way I am managing the stress in my life. (Hint: not very well.) I hit a real low earlier in

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Another migraine tonight. Things are not going well. Maybe tomorrow.

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Day 11 - Speaking Up:  Giving Status

Back after a mini vacation with J4 and J5 to a nearby water park for a couple of nights. We had a nice little getaway. Ended it yesterday, though, by having 3 almost back-to-back ocular migraines. I haven’t had one of those in years. Needless to say, it was a rough day. Today was restorative.