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Happy Fathers’ Day!!

We hosted the Fathers’ Day BBQ at our house on Saturday. We had a wonderful time! It was a little toasty, but it was really nice to have everyone together. And without further ado, I would like to honor the Fathers in my life.

Three generations of J’s (J3, J4 and J5)
J3, J4 and J5

My Dad, J5 and me:
My Dad, J5 and me

My boys and J4’s new drums:
My boys and J4’s new drums

I am so very blessed to have such a wonderful family who all get along so very well together! I just wish we lived a little closer together.


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Summer 2007 Exercise Challenge

Summer 2007 Exercise Challenge LogoMamabright, over at bright like the Son is hosting a Summer 2007 Exercise Challenge between now (started June 3, but you can hop in anytime!) and September 3. I’m in.

As I wrote yesterday, I have started doing Leslie Sansone’s In Home Walking on DVD. So, I’ve written up a loose plan of exercise and set a goal of 80 miles (via the DVD – not IRL) in the next 11 weeks. The DVD that I have has a one-mile and a two-mile plan. I’ve written up a plan that will get the hours in. Oh the fun of Google Spreadsheets!!

This is my progress ticker, linking to the challenge:

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My blog’s pre-final resting place

I have a site waiting for me –, but we’re not quite there yet. In order to get one step closer, I have created this blog. I am getting myself prepped for the new design and will hopefully stop being so bipolar in my posting. This blog now contains the last two blogs I’ve been maintaining (Random Wanderings and My Journey Out of the Pit) – combined into one. If I haven’t completely lost any of you who hang out here – that is really cool!


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Deprioritization of food

Ok, not even sure if that is a word, (too lazy to look it up), but I realized tonight that I need to “accentuate the positive” rather than focusing all my time and energy attempting to “eliminate the negative”.

Meaning – I am going to spend my time in the Word, listening to my heavenly Father, and am going to add things to my life like exercise and water and play time with J5 (and play time with J4!). Part of the insight that I believe God gave me while viewing the video with my mother the other day is that we become what we focus on. When I am doing diet plans, even ones as wonderful as Thin Within, I am still paying a great deal of attention to my “relationship with food”. Food is still on my mind a great deal, even if I am working hard to think positive thoughts. What I would like to be is free.

Free of thinking about food at all. I know I need to eat it, but I don’t think I am EVER going to be truly free until it doesn’t occupy precious mind space anymore.

I have still been very overwhelmed lately. It is getting better. I am spending time in the morning with my Bible, a Beth Moore book, and my calendar, prioritizing my day. Being a PT WAHM, (closer to SAHM than I used to be) I am finding that I need a lot more internal motivation than I realized. It is SO easy to become a couch potato. Not that there aren’t things to do, but without deadlines and requirements and external pressures, it can be a struggle. Add to that a touch of depression and you’re in for a sludgy lifestyle.

I purchased a DVD online last week. Leslie Sansone’s Walk The Walk: Miles 1 and 2. It lets you do a walking exercise routine in your living room. The one mile routine takes about 17 minutes. I’ve done it once. It was a workout! I can’t believe just how out of shape I’ve become – even with all day toy-pickup-patrol!

Anyway, I’ve decided that I am going to try an alternative approach. I’ve been “doing” Thin Within or some similar variation of it for so long – and my methods aren’t working. I am NOT saying that Thin Within doesn’t work. I am sure that it does, but right now I am not working Thin Within. So. On to another strategy. I am going to refocus – onto Christ. Onto doing things that benefit my Temple.

For I am about to do something new.
See, I have already begun! Do you not see it?
I will make a pathway through the wilderness.
I will create rivers in the dry wasteland.
Isaiah 43:19

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My body

I was reading another chapter in “Believing God” this morning. The chapter on “I can do all things through Christ”.

I have been floundering about what God’s plan for my life is. I keep getting lost in the hazy mist of imagined missions and huge new projects and church organizations. I think that has been satan’s way of scaring me off. I keep trying to see the God’s eye view of my life and ministry and it has had me pretty demoralized. I try to cast “vision” (which I don’t believe I’m gifted in) for myself and end up getting overwhelmed.

I began to question whether my struggle with my weight was even on his radar. I started to become discouraged that my desire to be set free from my fat and my food idol was selfish. That even though it was the biggest desire of my heart, that God had other “higher” plans for me and that I would just be stuck with fighting the food battle on my own.

After I finished my chapter, I just felt the need to read something scriptural. I needed to hear a biblical answer. I needed to hear God.

And this is what He told me:

And so, dear Christian friends, I [Paul] plead with you to give your bodies to God. Let them be a living and holy sacrifice — the kind he will accept. When you think of what he has done for you, is this too much to ask? Rom. 12:1 (NLT)

I have been so focused on the huge big overwhelming picture that I have been denying the one thing I CAN do. Right now. Give my BODY to him. My whole physical body. The tangible representation of me. He wants it. And that means I am to give it to him and follow what I know to be the “right” methods of caring for it.

He wants me to lose this weight. He wants me to eat when I am hungry, and to abstain from any food when I am not. I don’t think it can be more simple and clear-cut than that. That’s what I have been asking for. To know the path he wants me to walk. This is the path he has chosen for me right now. I just need to WALK IT!!

For I can do everything through Christ who gives me strength. Phil 4:13

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May Day Challenge – Weigh In

Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at PhotobucketStill loitering at 195. I’ve lost 2 so far, but I have started to be more conscious about moving more. Parking a little further out. Going for a walk in the evening, etc.

So, my “score” is currently: 0/-2 (0 this week, -2 total). As always, my stats are on my progress page. With all my fun tickers!

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One Thousand Gifts – Part 51

  • 388. Sunny weekend mornings.
  • 389. Re-finding my hope.
  • 390. J5 waking up all sunshiny and happy
  • 391. The changes God is making in my life to reveal the Daughter of God that I am.
  • 392. A home that I can care for.
  • 393. My family, both birth and in-law.
  • 394. Technology that connects me to many other believing women.
  • 395. TiVo desktop to be able to play Sesame Street and Blues Clues upstairs any time “we” want.
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Positive Thinking, Hope, and Faith

I have needed something to light the fire of my faith. A kick start. And God has done so in a way I was not expecting. Using a potentially controversial book called The Secret. The book itself isn’t what changed me. In fact, I haven’t even read it yet. I did watch about half of the video, but not enough to utilize it in the way it was intended.

I realized that all of my striving has been toward controlling my surroundings and my actions. And that striving left me exhausted, demoralized and depressed. What I hadn’t put my energy into was changing my thoughts.

My thought life is the one thing I do have the power to change. What “The Secret” proposed was that by thinking positive, positive things will, by the “Law of Attraction”, have to come to you. But I’m not writing to talk about all the things this book suggested, just to try to verbalize what I’ve been mulling over.

In an attempt to be “real” I have spent most of my life trying to listen to myself. To understand myself. To be guided by my “inner truth”. The problem with doing that is that I don’t have the answers. Well, I do have some. I know what I feel. I know what I lack. I know my pain and my need.

It’s time for me to get out of my head, and start expressing my gratitude and trust in my Abba Father. He’s the one with the answers. He’s the one with the plan, the grace, the blessings, the goodness. He IS it all.

The book talks about sending the right messages out to the universe. Why limit myself? I’m going to aim even higher! I want to have a living, breathing, daily relationship with the CREATOR of the universe.

So, yes, I will be doing a lot more positive thinking – in the form of praising God for what he has done, what he is already doing, and what he has planned to do for me, in me, with me.

My eyes have been on me. It’s time to get them up and focused on the amazing-ness that is God. He WILL change me. He WILL set me free. He WILL pull me out of the pit, and set my feet on solid ground. He has promised it, he already has the works in process, I just need to agree to go along for the ride! I need to cooperate with Him. I need to trust that the promises he made are already on their way! And they are. I am so very excited to see what’s in store!!!

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May Day Challenge – Weigh In

Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at PhotobucketFinally! Down 2!

I don’t know if this is normal fluctuation, or success, but I’ll take it! 🙂

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I am…a New Creature

“I am a new creature” TW 125

This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun! 2 Cor 5:17

In the last few days I have been shown time and again that my mindset matters. I received a faxed copy of a magazine article from a coworker, my Mom shared inspiration from a Book Club book she’s reading, one of the blogs I keep up with, and the Beth Moore book that I’m currently reading are all pointing to the fact that I have the ability to choose what I tell myself. I have the ability to choose to have a positive attitude, or I can have a negative one.

I had started writing a post about this verse a couple of days ago, but re-reading it again this evening, I can see a different message in it than I did before.

If I belong to Christ, meaning, if I have given my life to Jesus, and confessed my belief in him, then the rest is a done deal! I don’t mean I am perfect, or that I’m complete, but this verse says I have already become a new person. Now, if I’m not acting like it, then it is most likely because I have allowed myself to be deceived.

If I believe that what the Bible says is true, then my old life is gone. Really gone. And the new has come! It has already come. It is here. Now. Not someday. Not eventually. Not when I have more time. Now.

That being the case, what is stopping me from living that new life? Right now. This very minute? Nothing. Nothing and no one has the ability to revert my life back to the old. Nothing will separate me from the Love of God, and nothing can take away this New Life of mine!

Abba Father. You are mind-blowingly amazing. I find so much hope and life and peace in this verse tonight. It is a gift from you — this truth. I already AM changed. I am living the New Life from you right this very minute. I don’t want to waste another moment feeling beaten down, tired, exhausted, weary and discouraged. Please clear away the lies I have been believing and replace it with your healing truth. Guide me in eliminating the attitudes and behaviors that contradict the truth that is “alive and active in me”. Thank you, Father.