Christian Women Online have a special feature called “In Other Words” where they post a quote and take turns hosting the Mr. Linky for people to blog about the quote. The quote for this past Friday was this from C.S. Lewis:

“Every time you make a choice you are turning the central part of you, the part of you that chooses, into something a little different from what it was before…either into a creature that is in harmony with God,…or into one that is in a state of war with God. Each of us at each moment is progressing to the one state or the other.”

C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity

I am so completely ashamed. Today was a charge towards a state of war. Towards hardening my heart. Towards practicing my will completely. I don’t know what went wrong. My morning started out so wonderfully. J5 slept in and I had the chance to spend some time in my Bible just reading and learning about God. I did something different as I was reading the scriptures. I read it to see not what I should be doing, but what the verse taught me about God.

I am fairly certain that the underlying reason that I don’t obey the way I need to is because I don’t really trust God and what he says. I think it’s almost worth a re-read of Beth Moore’s Believing God. That book addresses this exact problem. I’ve posted several times about it on my random wander site – as I was reading that book a while back. Not enough of it stuck, I guess.

Tomorrow is another day and I am desperately needing those mercies of His that are new… I want to take the next right step TOWARDS Him.

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    God is soooo funny, sometimes! I know your post wasn’t “humorous”, but I just had to leave a comment and say “Thank you” for posting what you did, as God used it to answer a question I’d asked Him … and, it was in regards to the “BELIEVING GOD” study (Beth Moore) that I’ll be taking part in with my online friends over at the Bible In One Year group, starting April 2nd (join us, if you like! TaunaLen already did!) 😀

    Anyway… Thanks much! Now I have my answer! ;o)

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