Today at work was a complete brain Jell-o maker. We have had some system issues and it has caused a whole LOT of manual labor for me and a couple of my coworkers. Got me into a real “craving” mode. Ate more dinner than I needed. Baaaaaad cravings for all sorts of things. Did end up having one of these really yummy Caramel wafer thingies J4 got for Christmas. Could have eaten the entire bag (I’m talking jumbo as big as my head) of MnMs if I’d allowed myself to get started.
But I didn’t. I just KNEW I would hate myself if I did. I can’t say this was any sort of power on my part because I prayed and God took it all away – because I didn’t. I narrowly escaped by the skin of my teeth! White knuckled. Had hot tea.
We have SO much to do this weekend I am exhausted thinking about it. And yet, here I sit, blogging when I should be in bed.
Guess I’ll go…
Just finished my TLT study for Day 11. It was about repentance. I think it’s finally sinking in just how much a sin overeating is. Whenever I am tempted to eat in response to an emotional craving, it is irresponsible and, yes, sinful, of me to use food to stifle what my soul is screaming about.
That’s what it is when I crave dessert or hot cocoa or munchies. It’s my soul begging for satisfaction. And only God knows for sure what I need, so to Him I will go. He will guide me to whatever it is that will REALLY take care of that craving.
That craving is my soul needing a God-fill. Only he can fill it in a way that will satisfy. It is lunacy (and now I am understanding – idolatry) for me to go to food to take care of that cry – that need.
Father, thank you SO much for the clarity of the lesson this morning. And for the kindness shown me by my mentor in the study. You know how much I have been craving spiritual interaction. This is an answer to prayer. Please fill my soul with your joy today, so I don’t seek satisfaction anywhere else.